Truly Think It Through

If you arent in the military and are considering enlisting then really and truly think hard on the decision, decide if your health is worth the benefits, or if you will make a career in it, cause if not its hard to keep yourself going everyday its hard to wake up and see a point in it. If you cant really think for yourself then maybe its right for you if you are a leader then dont go enlisted cause there is just to much brain washing involved. Ive come down to start feeling that if you do become a leader or in better terms usually about an E6 to E7 and above that on more than three quarters of the time you have been brain washed past the point of return and are now pushing it onto others and doing the same for the military to others that was done to you...this is my experience thus far and the light is barely visible but still there, this changes on occasion but for the most part gets worse and worse. I dont feel im the only one who feels this way, and i think most the time i may of been a little better off just not joining but who knows since i cant just go back on it, who knows the truth behind how Im feeling cause i dont even know if i am see that truth right now! I look back and wish that i wouldn't of just joined on a impulse decision, had I of really thought it out I may of been able to avoid all of the anguish that I now feel like I'm putting myself through.