Fucked up situation!

So recently I have met a girl that has almost the same personality as me. She makes me so happy, She even likes almost everything that I like, been through the same things that I like. So where is this fucked? Well she has a girl friend, and recently I finally decided that I needed to ask her on a date that I have been wanting to ask her on for quite sometime. Well guess what she said yes. I've known her now for about a month and cannot for the life of me get over her. She is so amazing, we are always happy when together and if we are ever down for whatever reason we cheer each other right up! Her girlfriend doesn't want her to date any guys and thought she was cheating on her with me even though at the time it was absolutely not true not even in the slightest! But when I asked her on the date she agreed to go with me. Well When we went on our date even though it wasn't perfect, the ice rink was closed the place we went to eat (the cheesecake factory) didn't look good, we still had an amazing time. We ended up just going to Qdoba and then to go see The Social Network. And needless to say we kissed during our date, she even fed me popcorn (which by the way was way too cute!) and at the end we watched the greatest cartoon series ever, Invader Zim. Well that same night her gf texted me and asked if I could help her pick out a ring so that she could propose to Brittany. I felt uncomfortable but agreed anyways so that nothing would seem suspicious. The two of them say they love each other but yet Brittany agreed to go on this date with me and then yet kiss me during said date. This confused the hell out of me afterwards.

Well today I went to help Anna pick out a ring for Brittany, I even picked the exact ring that I knew for sure that Brittany would love! In just a matter of a month I have come to know this girl to the tee! I think I may be falling for her and at this point there is nothing I can do. I put myself in this situation and I know this but yet I can't help but try to be on this slight amount of a pursuit of happiness that I have found for the first time in so many years. I have been single now for over at least a year and a half, except for small spurts of "relationships" where i just get everything thrown back in my face. And for the first time in a long ass time I think I may of found that true spot that I have been craving and wanting for so fucking long! Except she is now engaged with Anna.

Now here is the really odd part, what the fuck do I do? Do I let it go, or do I tell her my true feelings? Because from the very second that I met this girl I've been wanting to say I could marry her. I would be willing to give up the single life, just to know that I could have this one amazing girl next to my side for the rest of my life. Now I do know that it's still early even for her "engagement" and I say it like that cause they have only known each other for a few months but still I can't help but hold on to that little piece of hope.

But seriously did that kiss or kisses if you will not mean anything? Would you kiss someone that you don't have some kind of serious feelings for when your in love with someone? Now I know that I pretty much just need to talk to her about all of this but its so hard for me to actually do that. I have told her this tonight right after the engagement went down that I need to talk to her, but still I can't help but hold onto the little piece of hope that there may be something there and that I am not the only one! Especially cause after all this went down and the two of them were leaving she turned around a whispered to me that one we need to have our conversation and two that we will meet up later. Can you say subliminal messaging much?

So What it really comes down to is what does one do in such a situation? Especially when you feel so strongly about someone that you can't feel the need to let them go since it will leave such a gaping hole in (and I'm just spitballing here) the future that your really could, and i do mean for the first time in my life that I have ever felt like this!

If you have some advise on this situation please please please pass it my way as I could truly need it at this point!

Thank you readers for once again listening to my pointless rants and me just letting out some more bent up tention.