So recently i got arrested and wondered what was gonna happen with this girl that I have actually decided to like and then my phone fucks up to the point of no return unfortunately...welll I ended up gettin drunk one night start the middle of a threesome. The one thing that many people would love to be involved in.
Well this one tended to be my idea one to help out a friend and two to say i have done it. So when this thing was going down about half way through, and you know what not even that I just thought maybe just maybe this girl has been true to me. So i stop walk out and deal with it. You know why because i actually care about her she has infested my mind its actually kinda stupid the way I am feeling. Now this girl is kind of a hoe and so am I normally but she just has me stupified if you will. And if she wants more than so do I but it is so hard to tell. I had my phone brake and havent talked to her in a few days so now I wait for a response or even something due to the fact that I have a new phone. So i brake out of one of my sexual fantasies for something i may eventually regret doing do to guilt.
Now I know it may just be me but I dont want to be "that guy" anymore I want to have someone that I truly care about and want to be with! And if thats is her than I will be more than ecstatic. If that is just me though then fuck what was I thinkin but if not and I do feel that there could possibly be a huge chance of this then that would be killer, do you know why? Well lemme tell you that it is because I am done with the old me. I want a new me and someone to bring home to the family. I have waited and dwelled on this for quite sometime now and have come to the final conclusion that I may finally be ready.
Ready for the realy jump? Well if so the question is....is SHE?!? Well she has given signs but none that prevail so i feel like I truly wait to find out the truth from her. God please help me in this one as I do sincerely need it.....
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